Turning off the VNS

It has occurred to me that the VNS device maybe hindering the quality of life. I still suffer the symptoms, depression and anxiety are still there, but constant hunger is there, immensely. The VNS device causes that when there are mitigating circumstances, meaning that when there are food allergens and other chemicals that are affecting me, then, yes it works. It always puts out the shock that puts serotonin into the brain. It is how the body receives the  extra serotonin with other factors involved. Other factors

• medications, 
• food,
• psychological preconceptions of fear of what has happened in the past,
• environmental things.

Maybe I need norepinephrine instead. And I have a problem with histamine. I found this link to a Canadian lab. Why American doctors, mainstream are not offering this test is beyond me.

Return to Work

I return to work today after one month off. I want this job, for the creativity and interaction with people and kids that I need. It may come to the point that I have to go for SSI and will find out soon if I can get that. Therapist Sheldon will let me know more on the 29th.
I can only hope that I can get some help, sometime, if not now in the future, hopefully before I lose it all, the house, the job, etc. But you know, I don't fear the worse, because somehow I know that dwelling on that would cause more sickness. I must just get through just that next couple of hours. Just that, the rest will take care of it's self.

Therapist Sheldon: A blessing

This therapist was a blessing. I prayed that

• what ever I was to tell her that it would come out correctly,
• that it would be perceived correctly,
• that I would hear the answer correctly, not jumbled up in my antidepressant mind
• that I would hold whatever she told in skecpticism until proven elsewise.

But she taught me an energy balancing technique that I had heard in massage about 18 years ago called tapping. Also I know that she has been in many different situations and worked with many illnesses to warrant what she says maybe the truth. In dealing with this illness over the years I have run into so many people who did not understand that yes, it was affecting me mentally with depression and anxiety, but it had physicality as well. She understood the link, right away. Thank God! So many people think that the physical is a psychosomatic response from the sick individual, instead of it being all one illness.

Weather Change:Mold Allergies?

The weather has moisture in it again. When this happens above about 50-60% I hit depression big time. Now the allergist says I don't have mold allergies and will not include the antigen in the allergy shots. More research is needed. Here is an excerpt from a book, then an article. First the link to a book excerpt:The Molds and Man Now the article, below:

Make sure your detoxification support is adequate. It is best to work with an experienced health care provider knowledgeable in the genetic SNPs that impact detoxification pathways and experienced in determining:

• organic acid tests

• hair tests

• fecal metals

• urine toxic metal tests and other important labs

This is because not everyone is able to detoxify different things efficiently, and a good percentage of the population are non-secretors!  Some individuals are more compromised in their ability to detoxify metals. This has a significant impact upon the levels of pathogenic molds, bacteria and mycotoxins in the body. Other individuals have immune system interference in their detoxification pathways that impact their ability to excrete mycotoxins and therefore have severe reactions to the die off of pathogenic molds and additional environmental molds. Future articles will attempt to discuss the complex subject of evaluating one’s detoxification pathway and what things to look out for when detoxifying certain things from the

body.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cholestyramine

the above is about a drug to kill the mold.http://www.immunematrix.com/

https://www.immunematrix.com/store/product.php?productid=16263&cat=264&page=1

SKU: SKU16263.

Above is the information for a stool test

This test will culture and identify the strains of good probiotics in your intestines, culture pathogenic bacteria, mold, candida and other yeast and identify prescription and non-prescription products that are tested as effective against your strains. Eliminating all pathogenic molds, candida strains and yeast, will reduce their excretions, the mycotoxins that wreck havoc on the body. This can be a significant source of toxic exposure outside of environmental mold exposure.

Notes to the Therapist: Sheldon

Current symptoms now physically:

When under the exposure these are the symptoms

loss of balance, the ears fill up with liquid

    loss of spacial judgements, knocking things over easily, missing turns in car, running over curbs

    typing becomes difficult and slow

itchy skin all over

post nasal drip

blurry eyes

gas

constipation

mental stuff starts happening

loss of concentration

short term memory loss

irritation

anxiety,

depression

Once I cover my nose and mouth with a clean cloth and breathe for about 25 minutes, not talking, not eating, all symptoms are lessened. Even the depression.

Now I have already put an air purifier and de-humidifier in my bedroom, and that has helped greatly for sleep. I used to wake up in severe depression and could not figure out why.

I have started on the generic OTC antihistamines for Zyrtec and Allerga.  Went to get a shot of steroid on last Tuesday, and it helped for about two days. They said it would last for one week Now I am on 5 mg of Prednisone. It barely helps. Right now I have to be outside for the job. So I take a lot of breathing breaks. I am taking the OTC Allerga and Prednisone together. It barely helps, even in the house (out of the bedroom with the de-humidifer and purifier).

My questions

I believe it is mold.  The symptoms are severe in rainy weather.  Even in overcast weather. What other type of thing could it be?

What types of drugs and treatments are available for this?

What strengths are  the upper limits and can be considered safe.?

I see the allergist on Wednesday and want to have a little knowledge about what to expect on the issue.

Thanks, and I hope to see you in about 10 days!

Current medications:

      Prednisone, 5 mg

      Digestive enzymes, zenpep 10,000 units, 3 to 5 caps before each meal

      Supplements

      Vit C, up to 10,000 mg daily

      Vit B 5, 2000 mcg daily

      Vit B 12 , 5000 mcg daily

      Vit D up to 10,000 IU daily

      Lysine, 4,800 mg daily

      Dindolylmethane (DIM) , 200 mg daily

      liquid Vit supplement

      fish oil 2000 IU daily

     

 Diet :

     No fried foods, no sodas, I drink, White teas, herbals water sweetened with Stevia

     95% of foods prepared at home.

     oils, fats are not hydrogenated.

     95% of foods are eaten raw

     proteins are from beans, flaxseeds,

Work done in CFBH

Sort of scared straight? There are others out there that are far worse. But before I went in I was not on medications for close to two years. Now I need that medication more than anything to hold on to the job that is outside. 

In therapy we covered how I am fused to the depression and how if I can see myself seperate from that disease, then the healing begins. Also we covered ANTs. Automatic Negative Thoughts, and I have ordered the book on the subject by Sally-Anne McCormick.

Would like to deal with in therapy here with Ms. Sheldon:

How to deal with this all together and not go deeper into the abyss 

Many food allergies,

• wheat,
• milk products
• nuts
• peanuts
• citrus
• fermented food give me problems
• plants of the mustard family, broccoli, cabbage, spinach.
• seeds
• tomatoes
• garlic
• fish
• beef
•  to the point that I cook all things for myself.
•  When eating out It has to be at a place that does not use MSG in any form.
• aspratame  can not be tolerated, only Stevia
• sugar easily grows some kind of thick spit on the tongue-so even fruits are out, so are potatoes and yams
• foods that are left must be eaten in a sort of rotation. Hard on me to do. Need help there.

Environmental

• dust
• dust mites
• grass
• pollen
• possible mold
• chemicals
• on antidepressants '93 to 1/25/ 2110, off until 10/26/2011

Started allergy shots on 11/15/11 for the top 4 in above list, 4th is still unproven.

Thought Bubbles: Character development?

My continued suffering of this disease is developing several character traits that I have shortage of. Namely, I have suffered enough from the inside sources of my pain, I will not accept others trying to judge me, or cause me guilt. After all it is my acceptance of that guilt that makes it legit. And it is that way with the inner pain as well. We are getting there.

Another is, I am in this for the rest of my life. A fight to the end and I will fight. It challenges me. I take that challenge and run with it. 

No one, nothing, except God knows what I have suffered as I lay crying, drove crying, tears streaming down my face. So I have that quite power that gives me strength. 

Now I must learn to defuse from the whole concept of "depression is me". It is just a part of a splendid person that I have become. 

Upped the Medications

I boosted the Xyzal up by half a pill on the 19th of November. I noted a great increase in balance, mood, and energy, a lessening of itchy skin. I take the half pill on arising, which is about 4 am these days.

The chiropractor's new adjustment with the traction collar device has helped greatly. I notice the difference almost immediately. He was adamant that I not return to medication. I thought that I had to to maintain hours at the job. Period. He doesn't know what the pain of anxiety and depression does on income. I am concerned about the poisoning of my body by the chemicals that I have decided to put back into the body, but I have to pay the mortgage.