Bad Downturn

On the 27,28,29th of November I had a bad downturn. After weeks of dental problems, then a cold that got centered in my ears I had the anxiety and depression that is usual in this kinda attack. It seems that this attack lasts about 72 hours.
Perhaps better diet, more exercise, and more sessions with the massage pillow will help slow the frequency of the attacks.
I have constant floaters now. Have for months.

Lower dose without increase to VNS

Because of the storms Dr. Rivera could not increase the VNS therapy today because he could not find the device to do so. It is the size of a remote control for a TV.What with the flooding and the moving of his office furniture he has misplaced it. Had I known this I would not have gone up there to his office. It is not that I needed it this time, but I shortly will. He wants me to go down 15mg in the paroxitine (Paxil). I am having migraines that I forgot to tell him about. The migraines are not constant, and not fullblown. But I am having tense upper back soreness. I am using the massage pillow that John gave me.We will see, and I will start the lower dose tomorrow.

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Back Up to Snuf

Last week I was constantly tired through my days off and only started feeling alive two days after I returned to work. But at least I can say that I regained my feelings of wellness and did not go into depression. I worked 46 hours and was very busy during that time. I did have a slight feeling of anxiety, but did not go into depression. I am three weeks into reduction of thoridiazine by half down to 25 ml a day and down on paxil by one quarter from 60 to 45 ml. I feel great. Migraines are less. I am using a massage pillow on my neck, but only since two days ago. So most of the time I have been depending on the implant to help and I believe it has. I am back up to 40+ hours at work.
I called the hospital to ask where the bill was, since it has been almost two months since the procedure. They said that they have resubmitted it to Aetna and that I should get it shortly, within the next two or three weeks.
Meanwhile I have told many people about it. It seems amazing and God sent. I actually feel good.
I am trying to lessen the amount of food I intake, and I think that is coming into focus as well. I gained at first, because everything tasted so much better. Carbs just don't mean that much to me any more. I thought I would never say that. Exercise is down a bit, mostly because of more time spent at work.

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Depression Returns

Depression hit me strong yesterday, almost, but not quite to the crying stage. I am better today, still having floaters in the eyes. I want to use the massage pillow, but I do not know if having an electronic field that close to the area ( my upper back) would bode well for the implant.
As for thoughts of depressive things, they have backed off. OCD has backed off. Teeth hurt, must be clenching my jaws in my sleep. I have bumped up the provigil to 300 mg every day, along with my other medications.(Cymbalta 120, generic paxil at 60, thyrodiazine at 50 mg) Right now I am having naps of only light sleep. but I sleep normally at night. To me this is good news.

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