Allergic Friends

In fighting depression, allergies or whatever. I have seen the support of people around me grow as I speak of the diseases. Now sometimes I become fused with the idea that I am only an allergic, depressed person, but this fusion is what is part of the problem. I am many things. One is a friend to others suffering. As I get information that others are suffering the illnesses then I begin to have hope that I can survive the constant brain whizzing and brain farts.
Erica, a friend at work is about, or more, allergic than I to things.  Her insights support me in this battle that I fight on a daily basis. She has the same balance problems that I have. Same weird thought placement. Trouble spelling, typing, even speaking when the allergies are in abundance. To know this is happening to someone else and they are willing to share the information with me is very supportive.  

Stress, Self Esteem, Trust

In order to stabilize myself and run my life I have to realize that things are as stressful as I permit them to be. I can dwell on them, repeating them in my mind and I get more and more depressed. Toxic thoughts cause stress and are hard to control unless one deliberately replaces the negative thoughts with the positive. A favorite bible passage usually works. The Lord will perfect all that concerns me (Psalm 138:8). Fill your mind with it. Every negative thought must be fought. Refuse to dwell on the situation and the situation diminishes.
Another way to handle stress is to have a quiet time with God. In times past work and it's rewards were more important than God. Family time was left unattended to. Yes,  run run run, and all for the promise of what, a paycheck ? Yes we all do it. We are to have balance as well.  I did it for all the regular reasons, house,car, food (lol). Dread of being  unemployed, etc.
God says develop a relationship with Him and He will provide--for everything.  That is what the quite time with Him is for.
Being creative is another way to stop stress. One must take that time to create. Cook, paint,  write, sculpt.  Any creative thing. It is as important as eating correctly.
Exercise, each day. It eliminates toxins, oxygenates the brain. I couldn't get any benefit from it for the longest time because I had no energy from eating the wrong foods all the time.  Allergic reaction to foods and the increased inflammation  from that caused and still causes fatigue.
God has given me the message that I am to take care of my physical health first and right next to that, not below it, my closeness to Him. If I do this and not worry about anything else He will provide and I will proser.
Self esteem is related to stress in that the amount of things that I get done, the higher my self esteem sores. But the more I get done the more tasks I  take on.   Pushing myself to do more causes more stress.    Catch 22. That is what I am working on constantly. Why do I have to obtain self love from working myself to death. Knowing that I am alright with out the always run run attitude is the answer. God says that I am more than all of this. He loves me and has a plan just for me, and He will put the plan in place at the time of His choosing.
Trust is another component in the mixture. Trust God to do what He says He will do.  He will protect you, loves you, wants only good for you. After prayer, discussion with friends, you must trust yourself, your vision, and when God answers you, trust that answer.

Symptoms that occur

Some symptoms that occur when the depression comes:(could be mold at the source of these-editor)
I stumble, the left foot gets in the way. I drop things more and am clumsy.
Eyes are itchy
Private parts burn.
Can't solve math problems, or simple logic problem.
Everything looks to big to slove ( any problem )
More anger insues.
I feel like my IQ goes down by nearly one third.
Ears pop and feel infected.
Tongue is coated with stuff that looks like cottage cheese
Can't type well. This locks in with clumsiness. Can't spell well. Asks husband to spell for me. Constantly. This irritates me.