Different antihistamine

Started a different antihistamine on the 6th of October. The previous was generic for Zyrtec.10 mg per 24 hrs.  This is generic for Allerga 60 mg every twelve hours. Last night after the second dose I thought it was giving me an allergic reaction. Scary thoughts. But I concentrated on positive bible passages. I think fear of the unknown sometimes triggers more allergic-like reactions than what would normally occur.
Same day 7:15 pm
Amazing day. As the symptoms came on I asked God to take them, just to take them. They would disappear. My mood was amazing. No depression. At all. Combination of positive Christian based thought:
The Lord makes perfect all that concerns me. Proverbs 138:8.
(yesterday, as I picked up the new allergy OTC drug I met a woman that was running the register who had the same problem as I do: allergy triggered depression. We traded notes, and I gave her a card. The real stunning part: she had my same first name. I had wondered if I should even go into WALGREENS to purchase the allergy OTC. Some thing or some One told me to do it at that time and to share a bit of what was happening to me. There are no coincidences. Just to make sure I got the message that she was there to let me know that I do not suffer alone, I am not crazy, she had my same first name. There are no coincidences in life.)
And today I am amazed that I can sit out in the rain and endure. On only three doses of an OTC.?! Yesterday I would run out of the work area, which 
Is located outside when it was just moist and cloudy, just a little rain. Today,rain for most of the day. A Blessing.?
You bet, an encounter of the Holy kind? You judge!

Walgreens Mistake

The medication foul up was that Walgreens miscounted the tablets and shorted me two weeks of meds. It scared me at the time because if they hadn't owned up to the mistake it would have cost me hundreds of dollars. That's another reason to switch to another method to control this disease of the mind.
This depression causes me to have a short temper. For years I ceaselessly berated myself for not having the patience that one should have for the small things in life. This is a part of how the disease is intertwined with my assessment of my self worth. I have searched the Bible, self help gurus, Buddhism, Wicca, hypnois, meditation(regular and sound vibration induced) Eckencar(a kind of religion), psychoanalysis, The Sedona Method, and am still searching for some kind of path. I am praying now and feel the presence of God. But the question still remains: why me?
So the answer is 'it just is' and to deal with it. Period.

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Information Quest

The Cymbalta upgrade did the trick. I can now remember when I have been happy. (Having to have a drug to remember when I was happy.) Over the past month Dave and I have gone to LA to celebrate our 30th anniversary and we had the best time. It is the quality of life that I am after.  On the vacation the colors seemed so rich, so vivid, and they had a quality of cuteness about them that had me laughing. Upon returning to the daily routine of work the depression came on strong again. I tried to recall the vacation experience, and the colors were less vivid. Some of the images were not all there. Partial images floated around in my memory. I manually put the colors back into the memory and the depression decreased.
The Cyberonics Corp. has paired me with an insurance specialist by the name of Cheryl and she has sent more paperwork for me to follow up on. The folks at Dr. Figeuroa's office have sent info in to Cheryl and I will follow up on my end. When I tried to contact therapist Anne Bercik I could not get in touch with her. Her phone number(s) are not working. But I will try through the State of Florida licensing board. Cheryl wants a list of the pharmaceutical medications that I have been on and the people at Walgreens said that all I needed was an ID and they could research it for me. I will also find out what I need to know on how I am to get my hospital records of when I went in for psychiatric problems.
I know that I have not had as much a problem as some people in the area of hospitalization, but there are and were days that I should have gone in, but I felt that others would stigmatize me for that.

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