Thought Bubbles: Hands of God

I have been through a very rough 6 weeks.
Immense fear: not knowing what was happening to me. Constant bouts of imbalance, gas, indigestion, irritation, agitation, anxiety, depression.
Hours being cut at work.
Thoughts of leaving a job of 35 years,
Perhaps leaving the state
Ripping my husband out of his job.

But now I came to the Lord. Asked for His gracious Hands to surround me. He did as He does now as I write this.
I sit in an allergy filled room with a mask on the face. I will soon rip up the carpet, and clean up the area.
But not knowing what was selling me down the river, well, it was terrifying.
At the worst, He was there, His hands encasing me.
We are spiritual beings, He is God, THE Spirit. ACCEPT that and become one with HIM & PEACE REIGNS!!!!!

Steriods: The answer for now?

Dear Edna,
They gave me a shot of a steroid and I began to feel better. I dreamed last night, for the first time in many weeks. This only occurs when the allergies are at bay. This means that I slept deeply despite the VNS implant. I am going to make it I feel. I don't really want more medications, but I need sleep and  symptom removal so the anxiety and depression, itchiness, imbalance go away. I am still on the path to find a better way than drugs to solve the problems. Will always be.
Then to the blog:
I started doing enemas with coffee about Oct 7. It stimulates the bile production in the liver and the detox of the liver and the bodily systems. Organic coffee and distilled water. Could no longer afford the seventy dollar supplement to support glutathione production that the enemas produce. I am reading "The Gerson Therapy". Big read, I do it while I do the enema (lol) for 12 minutes.

Allergies:One of the Answers?

Being sick with depression is a multi-sided problem. But I believe that my research has added up to the conclusion that I am suffering from many severe allergic reactions. And in response to these attacks my body reacts with depression and the other problems noted elsewhere in this blog.
Another system failure last night. I am allergic to brown rice flour . I am trying to find another thing to make crackers out of since Dr. Mueller told me to watch my arginine intake. Flax seed and sunflower seeds which make up this cracker which it homemade have a lot of arginine in them. So I am trying to find another thing to use. Garbanzo bean flour seems to work.
Arrowhead Mills organic brown rice is allergic causing. Swelling of upper gums, swelling of joints in hands, brown spit that was thick-gums must have reacted in some way. Slight depression, but not terrible this am, I ate the homemade cracker last night before bed. Later, the next day I ate rice cakes. A lot of depression happened. In reading the book Brain Allergies: Is this your Child? by Doris Rapp. I have gathered much information about how brain allergies can cause just the symptoms that have been plaguing me for all my life. Well, as long as I remember. Even down to the strange thought patterns of bloody knives, which I never wrote about, because it was to scary. But the thought was coming at the worst of the depression attacks. It was not to kill someone, but just scary bloody knives in the kitchen-and this could have been caused by the allergies that I have been suffering. Rapp discusses testing that involved drawings by kids. When under the effect of the allergies the kids would draw knives, tomb stones and other depression based horror subjects. Then when given an extract the images would disappear almost by magic. I have heard that these extracts are not known to work well at all times and are expensive. More to investigate. However my chiropractor says to eliminate the heavy metals and then see how the hormone and immunity pan out. I say I am going to do this and I have started to detox with DMSA just yesterday. May take months. I have had two urine tests for heavy metals one in November 2009 and one in July 2011 and the lead and all the other metals did not budge much, some have increased. But of course it might be a little off because the margin of error. But the metals are still there. I tried to detox with OSR(now off the market per the FDA) and a detox supplement created by Designs for Health which can be found on their website. Months involved and no urine test was retried in 2010. Even when I had paid for the second one and asked for it to be redone in 2010. If the doctor had just followed through and re-tested we could have pulled more of the metals out through something else. (Maybe DMSA),

Modern Alternative Mama - Blog

I have just found this great blog out there.  http://www.modernalternativemama.com/blog/ . I have only read one post, about autism. But I have lead and a small amount of arsenic poisoning in my body I am interested in anything that will help dispel the depression. Heavy metals in the blood definitely do affect the depression and anxiety that I feel.
Also the information that any person(s) with a weaken immune system, weather baby, or adult will have any kind of problem like autism, or depression when assaulted with outside chemicals like vaccines, or cleaning chemicals. Even things put into foods to preserve, or color, or flavor them cause me to react with depression, runny nose, imbalance, itchy eyes, itchy skin, difficulty in solving simple math and intense emotional upset at the slightest problem.

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