Sponges as Filters

Sitting outside for hours at a time produces anxiety and sometimes depression in me. I have noted in this blog before that I use small sponges to block the nasal passage to that I can stay outdoors at an employer that would not allow a mask for health reasons. I trying to avoid taking drugs, wearing a mask, and staying somewhat sane, I may have to have minor nose surgery.

On Steroids

October 11
Started steroids today . It was a shot given in rt buttock. Outside the next day. Almost unbearable. Using oregano and filters as well. Into the tunnel to breathe every so often. I must get through this. There is no other financial solution.
Bible passages: the Lord is my rock..
October 19th
On the subject of steroids: they caused me depression and loss of appetite.
Dr. Issac does not want me to go on any drugs. I agree, and will get the scoop from the allergy testing that will be soon.
When my brain is calm and functioning well I can see to follow a path with out drugs. Duh. But when inflamed with what ever it is, then I am frightened. I appeal to spiritual strength and guidance.

Next Weather Front Approaches

A thing about mold allergy: as the weather changes my mood changes to extremely anxious, but I realize that if I must go on pharmaceuticals to maintain a job, then I will. I fear to do so because of the side effects of steroids, or any other thing they may give me to give me some sanity. The way I can barely maintain any kind of sanity now is that I wear filters shoved up my nose. The filters are sponges, small celled foam. Then I at times dose with oregano oil.

Steroids brought into the fight

Started steroids on the 11th. It was a shot given in right buttock. Outside the next day. All most unbearable. Using oregano and filters as well. Into the tunnel to breathe every so often. I must get through this. There is no other financial solution.
Bible passages: the Lord is my rock. I know He is here with me now.
The allergist seems to be extremely unfair with his new patients and for their first visit he makes them pay any funds left to pay on their deductible for that year. Mine now would be about three thousand dollars. I am punished because I have been healthy this year. And the statements of collection agencies and 90 day payment deadlines, they are scary and means this place is expensive. I want to gather information and pray about this.
I have prayed and decided to call and talk to them at Dr. Anderson's, and  have spoke with them this morning and only need the co-pay-60.00 to see them on the first visit. It is scary because my mind continues in panic/anxiety/depression mode from  the allergy.