Thought Bubbles: Hands of God

I have been through a very rough 6 weeks.
Immense fear: not knowing what was happening to me. Constant bouts of imbalance, gas, indigestion, irritation, agitation, anxiety, depression.
Hours being cut at work.
Thoughts of leaving a job of 35 years,
Perhaps leaving the state
Ripping my husband out of his job.

But now I came to the Lord. Asked for His gracious Hands to surround me. He did as He does now as I write this.
I sit in an allergy filled room with a mask on the face. I will soon rip up the carpet, and clean up the area.
But not knowing what was selling me down the river, well, it was terrifying.
At the worst, He was there, His hands encasing me.
We are spiritual beings, He is God, THE Spirit. ACCEPT that and become one with HIM & PEACE REIGNS!!!!!

Deep Depression

I have been slipping into allergic reactions all this past week. As I would get off the bus at work my skin itches, on work location I track itching across my shoulder blades. As the rainy weather from the hurricane increased so did my symptoms. Remember I am outside my entire work shift, except on break and lunch,
On the 16th I ate at Golden Corral. The reactions started after eating the canned kidney beans and olives. Then I ate the chicken and sweet pork. Included in the meal was steamed broccoli. The chicken was the first in a long time. I have suspected chicken before.
The results are as follows upon finishing the meal
7:30 gas, itchy eyes, 
8:00-8:15 sleepiness
10:00 to bed early
2:00 to 4:00 joint pain in fingers while up to the bathroom
6:00 popping ears
6:30 depression starts
8:30 blurry vision, depression intensifies
in work location
9:00 nose running
10:05 indigestion and itchy hands.
Throughout day the symptoms got less and less, but if rain came in, and unfortunately I did not make notes on late day weather, The symptoms would have gotten worse.
On the 24th I was outside in the rain, as always. On that day the anxiety increased throughout the afternoon and so did knuckle joint pain. I went on break into the interior break area. The cafeteria, a considerably drier place. The symptoms cleared in about one half hour. But when I went back to the work area the depression gradually returned as did the joint pain.
The next day, I am outside the entire time in rainy conditions.
3:40: the moment I came off the shuttle bus my skin itched on my left forearm, then in the tunnel on route to  location my armpit lymph glands start to hurt. But at that time I am in a happy mental state.
4:00 at the location.skin itching. Groin lymph glands started to ache. Headache starts. Runny nose is starting.
4:20 joint pain, feet itchy, knuckles are starting to pain me.
4:25 anxiety starts, indigestion-bubbly sounds starts as well.
Weather starts to dry up.
7:20 continuing gas, but no itching while off sage in a drier place.
As weather got direr the symptoms got better.

I am to be scratch tested today for food allergies, and supplements for mold problems will be discussed when I go to pick up the supplements for the low immunity:
GSH glutathion
DMSA
Vitamin emulsi-D-3
L-MTHF (activated B-5)
Digest All

Family Night

Support in my efforts to battle this problem is the main thing that I need. I get it  from all who I encounter, except one major person. This is an email from my sister and my reply:

On Aug 15, 2011, at 4:48 PM, Edna  wrote:

Dear Janet,

I did try to get to your blog but I could not get in to read any thing. I am sorry.  I did try to surf and do some research.

When I was on line trying to do some research this afternoon, Jennifer called. (Her daughter who suffers from allergies) We actually had some decent conversation for about an hour.  I do not know how much communication got through but at least it is a start for us.  That was good.

Continue to keep your food journal.  Keep the amounts of food and the times that you eat also.  I know that this sounds picky but you are looking for repeated patterns and foods that are bothering you and giving you bad reactions.  Look for daily, weekly, and monthly patterns.  Also, record your sleep patterns.  Note your moods and feelings.  Don’t obsess about all this.  If you miss something or time, get back on track the next time cycle.  Again, don’t get down on your self for looking for the why.  Perhaps, you will be able to talk to the doctor more intelligently.  Be sure to include a joke on yourself and then laugh at yourself and press on with life.  We are praying for you.

Love,

Edna

thanks, I need support. I get it from everyone except John. He seems to think it is all in my head. I have to think about what the bible said: and I don't know just what verse, but we get our esteem from the Lord, not others, even our brother. It is hard on Wednesdays. The day after Family Night. I am poisoned by the food and the doubts (caused by his unfaltering statements of this doesn't bother me, so it can't be bothering you) he causes. I am sorry, but swollen joints, lost balance, blisters in the mouth, break outs of herpes around the mouth, swollen gums, gas, bloating, itchy skin, constipation, depression, anxiety, popping in the ears, fatigue does bother me and I need support from someone I have adored all of my life. I am glad that I got that out of my system. And God be praised for your support.Glad you got to talk to Jennifer. Did you find out just what she suffers with? Both mentally, and physically?