Post Hospital-Again

I was in the psychiatric ward again. The cymbalta was not doing the whole job. The stay was from 12/27/11 to 12/31/11. They gave me risperdal at .5mg twice daily. This was wonderful at first. But as I reentered the outside world, my sleeping took a nose dive. The anxiety increased 10 fold and the allergies magnified. I checked the air filter in the AC system and it was filthy and I replaced it last night.
At one AM I had not slept again for the second night. I went  to Walgreens and got some melatonin product that is called Sweet Slumber made by Schiff. This did pretty well until I woke up with a racing heart about three AM. It took about 5 minutes for it to calm down and I went back to sleep. This is scary enough for me to seek medical advice. I took the Sweet Slumber because the pharmacist said it would be alright to do so after I told him about the antihistamines and antidepressants. When I got home the inside label said that depressives should not take the product.
I want medical advice. I need sleep and the allergies are keeping me up, agitated and irritated. I will go to the allergy doctor to day for a shot and I will move the next appointment to the next available date. I must have relief! 

Allergic to Olive Oil?

I did a hot oil treatment to my hair this morning. Putting olive oil on the hair, then a shower cap and wrapping it up in a towel. After about 30 minutes my lips started to swell, my depression came, stomach in butterflies (anxiety), gums started to swell. I washed what I could out and ran to get my second antihistamine for the day,  Xyzal, for I had already taken my Wal-itin, a generic store brand of Claritin, about two hours before. What would have happened if I had not taken the stuff before the treatment?
I have been eating olive oil for years, and thought I could tolerate the stuff. Apparently not in this amount, in this way, on the skin. 

Lock Up Blog-CFBH log

11/4/11
I have come to a mental hospital by Seaworld.  Scary at first. Very,very scary. locked in. Every door is under lock and key.
Residents are all sitting in a line of chairs in front of the TV. Some zoned out, other more alert and attentive.
Tough night, and possible wheat or aspartame reactions in the morning from the juice,which was .a crystallite or HONEY NUT OATS  I had for breakfast.
11/5/11
Dr. Hasheez put me Effexor .75. Dr K put me on Xanax .25x3, the singular 10mg, Xyzal by allergist.  I will cancel the allergy shots for now. It-the shots were to start the eight if Nov....I have postponed the Chiropractic for now. The chiropractor was adiment that I not take drugs. That could not not be possible and hold a job. So let that be. I suffered enough. I will maintain about as healthy a life style as I can.
11/5/11
I pray that I have a job to go back to when I get out of here. John says that he would like to help us with our finances, and wants to review how we spend our money. That sounds good right now. Eases the worry.

Poor David, he has seen the down turn in my health,  and now the separation that this lock up causes. Visits are only twice a week for one hour, phone calls are limited to only when others are not using the two phones that are set out when phone access happens three times daily. The access is shared by about 16 women.

The pencils are short golf pencils so people can no use them to stick them into themselves or others. The night I saw a TV show there at the lock up on how someone did that,  well it almost liquidifed my innards.
They won't allow me my watercolor brush, so I wrap a small piece of cloth around the tip of a pencil and use that.  With it my art survives.......it will always help me to survive.
They dose me up on the antihistamines and Ambien to help me sleep. Only thing is these antihistamines don't induce sleep.

I find that when I have a stressful allergic day, as in cleaning, the lymph glands hurt and the VNS does not keep me awake as much.   It is as if the toxins in the body are slowing the effect of the VNS. It does not physically stop it, just slow the affects on the body.  When I am away from the house with all of its dust mites, and then come to the house to sleep, then it has the affect that it gives me too much energy...as if I  drank a lot of caffeine in the late afternoon.  So I am going to try this strategy : cut it down as I can remember during the day, let it decrease it's affects during the day when the body has less to fight and then let it rip at night when I am at home.  The magnet will let me do this. It shuts off the device for that one stimulation and the device will pick up again two hours later. That is how it is set up.

11/6/11
I upped the VNS before I came to this lock up.  Thank God, for it has really helped me in many respects. I am realizing that I must come at this from a different aspect.  They have offered me to visit the therapy program that is attached to this facility. I will do it, if we can do it with out incurring more costs.  It would involve 5 hours of therapy-group therapy.

11/7/11
We work with affirmations here at the PHP side of the lock up. It is a mirror reflection of what is happening to me.. I was locked in my location in the other area in this facility, locked in the depression, hopelessness and anxiety. Here it seems that I am unlocking thoughts that caused some of the depression.


11/8/11
Most of the TV shows that are shown here in the lock up are extremely violent. Amongst the constant bouts of dramas on the phones, residents attacking staff, people in constant hideous emotional states, if one wasn't unstable when they came in,  they are now.  What ever I was going through at home, it was far less than what is going on here. Abilify started at 2.5 mg.

11/9/11
Meds now:Abilify upped to 5mg


11/10/11
Knowing how to stop the automatic negative thoughts that I have programmed into the brain over the years. ANTeaters : thought reprogramming to stop the negativity.

Allergist Time

I have been told for the past two  years that to take any pharmaceutical drugs is poisonous to your body. Told that chiropractic will heal all. I has come to this: I believe that this is true. But to put it simply: I work outside and I need to maintain a job to pay for all things. I am allergic to something in the air, and I believe it is mold. So to manage and stabilize what is happening to me I am going to go to an allergist. Scheduled on the 19th of Oct. I am to be off all antihistamines for one week previously. I will have to make it, but I may not be able to. My brain is fried.

I go to Animal Kingdom

On a rare Sunday off I and my husband decided to go to Animal Kingdom, Disney's animal themed park. If you have a mold, pollen allergy please beware. The park is below over hanging trees. The air, even on a relatively dry day is moist and laden with mold.
I arrived there in relative good condition. I knew that the weather was not dry enough to support me out there. But I had loaded up on cetirizine hydrochloride tablets from Walgreens. Something that I had started to take on Saturday the first of October. It is a stop gap at best for this condition, for I am sensitive to many things, and it helps only a little bit. It is a product that is an antihistamine and the amount that I took was one tab at 10 mg. It had worked the day before as I stood out in the outdoors on Main Street USA. But Main Street is not under trees. There is standing water in the nooks and crannies in the area that I work, but not like in the Animal Kingdom with running water in the streams under the overhanging trees. The symptoms started soon after I got there.
The itchy skin was under control this time. But balance was affected, indigestion, gas started. stiff neck muscles, mostly on the right side. All these symptoms are the byproducts of when mold allergy visits me. Although I have not been tested directly for the allergy, I am consistent in the reactions each time I am in a moist area. I went to air conditioned shopping areas and was relieved for a few minutes at a time. But I held on to shelving and my husband's arm to steady myself. Thought processes began to go down hill. I became as if I were disconnected with what was going on around me. Not disoriented, just more and more apathetic. Depression was setting in. Then fatigue began to come and overtake me. This pattern used to frighten me and I used to demand of myself that I was at fault somehow. But It has happened, now that I know what to look for in the memories of my outings to the Animal Kingdom, every time I have been out there. When I came home, I took another tab of the Walgreens brand antihistamine and went to sleep for two hours. I rarely sleep that long during the day, except when suffering an allergic reaction from something. The VNS device won't let me. It gives me a near normal sleep pattern. Little or no sleep during the day, 5 to 7 or 8 during the night.  I am up now writing this post and the depression is lessening, but the gas and indigestion remain, balance has returned. It is dry today, no rain. There is just so much that that antihistamine can handle. It is an overall mild antihistamine. Not a heavy duty shot.


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