Suttle psychological stuff

When I eat sugar in any form my personality changes. I go from extrovert to introvert.From I can handle this situation to this is bad and I want to retreat into a cave somewhere. This also happens when any stress happens. Be it physical, emotional or mental. It is the yeast inside me. When I am not under stress I can tell a doctor off, get into it with a cop, tell my boss off, etc. It comes down to how much stress I put on my body in terms of what I eat, the environment that I am in, the amount of noise that I have around me, what I smell, the amount of rain and wetness, or heat. All of that stuff effects me in tiny ways and changes my choice of responses. But when I eat sugar it cripples me. I am a different person totally. Even thought patterns are different.
When I took moves to leave the doctor the other day I felt empowered and I had been controlling the sugar intake well for weeks. I had a Paleo bar that evening. It had 9 grams of a sugar in it. I have been on an emotional roller coaster this last week. Projects have slowed down, thinking slowed, confusion setting in. This is 5 days later and I am exhausted. No depression though. But I consider this as depression, a lighter version than in the past though.

Got through Christmas Rush

I started taking the paxil again(on Dec 3), as stated in the last post.This put me at 200 provigal,15 paxil, 60 cymbalta VNS at 1.25 every 2.5 hours). The paxil was restarted at 15mg. This increasing of the amount of serotonin stopped the migraines. During the vacation I was active and moving around more than usual. I stuffed myself daily and ate every night before bed. I began taking the restless leg syndrome drug regularly. I notice with less stress the implant seems to cause me to burn more calories. Not necessarily through action, but sped up metabolism. It also allows me to get more done, mentally as well. I am more willing to do more stuff and combine tasks, and have energy even after that. I can depend on the level of energy. This pleases me to no end.
During the vacation Cheryl called me and told me that Dr. Rivera now had all that he needed to start up therapy again. I made an appointment for Tues. Jan 13th.
As I weighed myself after the vacation, I had only gained three pounds. As I went back to work and stress increased I gained weight eating less than on vacation. So more stress decreases the effect of the implant. Dah. But I was able to handle the stress with out the anxiety and depression coming on. I worked 57 hours in six days, straight, no days off. Only tired on the last day. No depression. Before the implant and on far more medications ( 200 provigal,60 paxil, 50 thoridiazine, 60 cymbalta) I could only work 32 hours in a 5 day period.
I am scheduled to have a scan on the liver,  enzymes are denoting possible problems.
I am going to diet and exercise in the new year to stop the cholesterol and oncoming sugar problems.