Thought Bubbles: God and Prayer

God may not answer prayer for these reasons:

• Your relationship with God has been neglected, you have focused on carnal things, refocus on Him.
• Timing is not right for Him to answer:other plans, other people's minds and thought must be brought into line with His plans.
• He wants develop patience and faith in me. Having me look for his response is one of those ways.
• Also maybe my reasons for what I want are not the correct reasons for wanting that thing.

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Thought Bubbles: Patience in Stress

I prayed for healing, according to the blog on Nov 22. I had the tingling and the lifting of the depression. That lasted for two weeks and then it re-emerged. I asked God why, and through three different sources I got answers. One answer was through Aaron. He said God knows far more about you and your condition than you and knows when to release the depression. Patience was stressed. Then on the way home on the radio I heard a preacher on a radio station that I came to when I was scanning the dial that to have patience in life, and then the next morning I heard another two radio personalities talking about patience again. Three times in two days. God was saying something. But looking back on the timing and the things that occurred when they did is very strange.

Letter to Mary

 I have steadily gained some muscle over the past couple of months. Muscle weighs more than fat, but by the Tanita machine i am losing fat and gaining muscle. This increases metabolism. Not much, but a good start. I am doing Liquid Chlorophyll in all my water. Really does alkalize me and I am doing better. Spiritually I am better as well. God is leading me in growing faith. He tells me I need to grow in patience and express less anger about things. He will lead me, just have patience. That there will be enough money, enough to do what is right for my health. And I  am to tell people about what is happening to me.
I went to a new doctor today. Neurologist to be on my "medical staff" to adjust the VNS device. He seemed "right". So did his secretary. I was relieved. I thought it might be rough. I had prayed for it to be so, to be "right",  and the Lord answered, why did I even worry? Patience, my child I hear it even now. :) I quietly smile and nod my head.

The depression returned, then lifts

Shortly after the last post dated the 7th the depression returned. But I knew that I was on the right track. I asked Aaron, my work
"pastor" just what was happening. Building of faith and of patience, for God knows my full condition, mentally, physically, emotionally. I thought about that. That concept of some One else knowing just how all things tied together would effect me. That made sense to me. I know I have patience for the guests at work, but not for much else. So this is another lesson. Ponder.
Then I get into my car and the radio was tuned into a radio station that had on a pastor who was speaking about patience. Coincidence? I don't think God works haphazardly. Then through out the week things have been centering about patience. Things just mentioned to me in conversation.
Last night I was looking for a set of maps about the Bible lands in my library (I study archaeology and the Bible and would have  maps for those studies)  and found a prayer book entitled, Emotional Wholeness, by author Stormie (what a name!) Omartian. The attached book mark was in the patience and anger prayer section. I think a message is being sent, how else can one explain it? My dance with the loving grace of God continues.

Thought Bubbles:The Healing Moment

It was on Nov. 22 that I asked God to heal me. In the car in the parking lot at my employee parking. Immediately in my head I heard a voice that said you've never asked. And my head started tingling. I mean tingling. This feeling of tingling is not new to me. Every time the depression had lifted, even for a few minutes, my brain, in some area would tingle. Picture a ball, the brain on the interior, and the skin of the ball is where the tingling would happen. This tingling in the past would occur randomly and a I could see no pattern, no connection to thoughts, food, meds, herbs, etc.
But here lately when I think of the full acceptance of God's love, well sometimes it happens. Just the watching of the brain and how it reacts to all of this is a part of this blog. It tingled for about 10 or 15 minutes, the full skin all over the head. This had never happened like this before. I have not been depressed in two weeks. God had responded in seconds.
(Yes, the depression returned, but it gave me the hope that God is there, but that I was not ready for the healing. This sounds weird, but shortly after this incident I heard another message that patience was needed, Three different times, one time on three different days in a row,-editor)