Tuesday, December 20, 2011

What is real?

I have been turning over in my mind the video that was shot of me the last time I was fighting a bout of depression. I have fought so many bouts that they are all just like the last time. But what I found most important is that the reality of what was in my head, the depression, was not the reality of what was going on about me. It was lively, people looking at me, moving around, enjoying themselves, living. I want to have that reality, not the depression in my head. I have been feeding myself the wrong reality for years.
In that instant, I realized that I was in the way of my own recovery. I have been praying that I should keep my mind on pure and positive thoughts, then like a light bulb this thought about the video went on in my head and I have a weapon to fight the depression with.

Herbs and Stress

In an effort to combat the stress that brings on a bout of depression, I have read up on herbs, and came across this information on several herbs:

Herbs to Help You Defeat Holiday Stress
Most of us look forward to the holidays. It’s a time for family, friends and planning for the new year. But it can also be a season of stress. There’s so much to accomplish… but very little time. And wintry weather can make completing your to-do list nearly impossible.
Wouldn’t it be great if there were a simple way to beat year-end stress?
There is. In fact, there are several. And today, I’ll share a few stress-busting herbs that can help you deal with holiday stress.
Panax ginseng is one of the best known – and best studied – herbs. It’s been a part of the Chinese herbal tradition for many centuries. And with good reason.
Ginseng is a potent adaptogen. That is, an herb that helps your body deal with stress. One way it works is by promoting lower levels of your body’s main stress hormone, cortisol.1 When your cortisol levels go down, your body switches into “recovery mode,” allowing you to relax and feel less tense.
Schisandra isn’t as well known as ginseng, but it may be even more effective at helping you beat stress. This Asian shrub produces a lovely reddish blossom and a fruit known in China as “five flavor fruit.”
Russian studies suggest it has positive effects on your heart, nerves, blood vessels, and immune system. They’ve found schisandra promotes feelings of relaxation, as well as supporting greater endurance, mental sharpness and working capacity.2
You can find Panax ginseng and schisandra at health food stores and online.
If you’re fond of a cup of tea, chamomile can help you relax. It’s especially effective before bedtime. But chamomile’s taste reminds many people of straw.
A better choice for a relaxing cup of tea might be another flower – passionflower. Studies show it’s very effective at helping you de-stress.
Passionflower encourages less tension, restlessness and irritablility.3 Australian researchers have found it promotes better sleep.4 And doctors in Turkey have even used passionflower to help patients relax before surgery.5
Passionflower is readily available in several forms – including as a tea.
Aromatherapy is another effective way to de-stress. Lavender is well known for its relaxing properties. A hot, lavender-scented bath is a wonderful way to pamper yourself as you feel the stress just melt away.
But don’t be fooled by its delicate scent. Lavender is powerful stuff.
In a recent study, doctors at United Hospital in St. Paul exposed some patients waiting for surgery to lavender oil. These patients felt less nervous about their surgeries than patients who weren’t exposed to lavender oil.6
Another calming essential oil I enjoy is orange. Like lavender, it promotes a sense of calmness and ease. Austrian researchers exposed dental patients to the scent of orange in the waiting room. These patients were far more relaxed about their upcoming dental appointments than a second group not exposed to orange.7
A great way to use orange is to put a fresh, torn-up orange peel and a crushed cinnamon stick into a pan with 3 or 4 cups of water. Then simmer the contents on the stovetop – being careful not to let the water boil all the way down.
Soon your house will fill with a warm holiday scent that also promotes relaxation and feelings of calm.


Monday, December 19, 2011

Thought Bubbles: How to Spend Time

God allows us only one 24 hour period to live in at a time. In our minds we may race forward to worry about the future or wander in the past to dwell on what should have been done. But these pursuits are wastes of the 24 hours that we have to live today. To focus on what is here today, in this 24 hour period is what we have learn to do.This is what I am learning out of this depression at this time.





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Thursday, December 15, 2011

Highly Sensitive Person: Could this Be Me?

As I checked my mail this morning I found information from the Modern Alternative MaMa Blog about food allergies and as I read down the page I ran into the information that kinda blew me away. I have always been more aware of stimuli in the environment, noticing details and sensitive to others body language and details of their movement and learned to push it aside, or label it as projection. Me projecting on to the person something that I thought they were thinking. That still may be the case, but other things bother me as well, noise, smells, chemical odors, now humidity.
So when the information about the highly sensitive person and Elaine Aron came up, I jumped at the opportunity to find out more about the subject and ordered her book on Amazon.
Here is an excerpt from her website:


In defining the Highly Sensitive Person, Dr. Aron provides examples of characteristic behaviors, and these are reflected in the questions she typically asks patients or interview subjects:
  • Are you easily overwhelmed by such things as bright lights, strong smells, coarse fabrics, or sirens nearby?
  • Do you get rattled when you have a lot to do in a short amount of time?
  • Do you make a point of avoiding violent movies and TV shows?
  • Do you need to withdraw during busy days, into bed or a darkened room or some other place where you can have privacy and relief from the situation?
  • Do you make it a high priority to arrange your life to avoid upsetting or overwhelming situations?
  • Do you notice or enjoy delicate or fine scents, tastes, sounds, or works of art?
  • Do you have a rich and complex inner life?
  • When you were a child, did your parents or teachers see you as sensitive or shy?
Dr. Aron explains that in the past HSPs have been called "shy," "timid," "inhibited," or "introverted," but these labels completely miss the nature of the trait. Thirty percent of HSPs are actually extroverts. HSPs only appear inhibited because they are so aware of all the possibilities in a situation. They pause before acting, reflecting on their past experiences. If these were mostly bad experiences, then yes, they will be truly shy. But in a culture that prefers confident, "bold" extroverts, it is harmful as well as mistaken to stigmatize all HSPs as shy when many are not. InThe Highly Sensitive Person, Dr. Aron reframes these stereotyping words and their common application to the HSP in a more positive light and helps HSPs use and view these aspects of their personality as strengths rather than weaknesses.
Sensitivity is anything but a flaw. Many HSPs are often unusually creative and productive workers, attentive and thoughtful partners, and intellectually gifted individuals. According to Dr. Aron, HSPs could contribute much more to society if they received the right kind of attention - and her national bestseller proves that this 15 to 20 percent of the population is eager to get off on the right foot in asserting their unique personality trait.


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Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Thought Bubbles: Holley's blog

I take inspiration from where ever I can get it. Here is a blog that I read almost every morning: It Is by Holley Gerth

I don't know exactly where you are at this moment.
But I know this...
You are loved.
You are surrounded by grace.
I'm not sure what's ahead of you in the days to come.
But I'm sure of this...
You will not face it alone.
You already have victory in the ways that matter most.
I may not see every detail of your circumstances.
But I see this...
You have a God who watches over you with tender care.
And wherever you are, He is already there.
As you begin your week, my friend, know that you're in my thoughts and prayers!
Who in your life needs to hear this today too?
She says things so lovingly and graciously that I am hesitant to write anything afterwards. But  I am reminded that the world does go on around me as I struggle with the battle within. To pull myself up out of the stifling, overbearing river of depression and breathe again the breath of life, that is my goal! How can one do so without the guidance of a God, of friends, of family.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Allergy Shots and depression

The allergy shots and the depressions are coming on the same days. I have told the nurse this, and she pooh-pawed this notion. But the other effects of allergies are inquired about. Wheezing, coughing, sneezing are asked about. But not depression. We will discuss this today. I will tell her, the nurse practitioner, of the statement that the psychiatrist made that environmental toxins do produce depression. So that the conclusion could be made that the allergy shots are having an effect. And that the body will be built up to handle this source of depression.



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Brother John


I have suffered from my brother not caring to admit that I exist.It is his attitude. I believe he is stressed out and suffers allergies and things as I do, but he keeps it inside and becomes cold towards all people,especially family. To those who could help him. So I have to survive and I turn away from the relationship and move on. I can not get emotional support from him, nor financial either, so it will remain a purely surface relationship for now. I admired him growing up. Admired his degrees, learning, ability to make money, security and self-confidence. But not coldness, lack of emotion, empathy, and soul. I care for him deeply. but in this latest bout with the disease of depression, I have learned that a disease that is not seen, is not understood by the unempathic and logical people of this family. But to survive, one must not hold on to the things of childhood, but cast them aside if they are in the way of moving on,



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