I began Green Vibrance

Yesterday at sunset, after my evening meal of Mahi-Mahi, that I had at Hooters, I put a scoop of this green powder into a glass of water, and drank it on the way home. The water turned almost black, it was so green. I have heard from Dr. Dan that energy increases and that the product, being pure green energy from plants, alkalizes the body.
This is what my friend Kathy says about her product that she bought from Dee Simmons. This product was here and available immediately, so I bought it. Let's see if it stops the Y/M symptoms.
I had my latest lab test and am high in sodium, and low in Vitamin D. This product has vit D in a different form than what I had on my turntable of supplements that sits in my kitchen cabinet. So if it can be absorbed in a new way, well then maybe my vit D level will rise. It has been off for some time. Lack of Vit D causes depression as well. I live in Florida and am out in the sun for quite a bit everyday and thought that the sun would supply my Vit D needs, apparently it does not. When I supplement it with over the counter capsules my breasts hurt. Vit D is stored in fat tissue. I had always thought that  I did not need the Vitamin if the place that stored it hurt when I took it. But this fact is not held up to the light of truth if the test says that I lack the Vit. (vitamin D)

These are Janet’s other sites:

nicktimeflyer.com

cafepress.com/bubbledreams

thesilhouetteshop.yolasite.com

Thought Bubbles: The Spiritual Life Ensues

Something happened to me when the people at YFCC prayed for me. I began to see the statements of the Bible differently. The darkness inside my soul began to recede. I had always thought of the devil as an imp with a pointy tail. Red body, gleeful devilish eyes, but nothing that was going to bother me. Ah, but when I began see the devil as the depression and how the depression was robbing me of my light, of my joy, then, yes the devil was real and the only solution was the light of God. The sin was not see it this way. Once I saw it and asked God to forgive me, well I heard this booming voice "I forgive you". It was not my inner voice, but a much stronger, louder voice. One of strength. Not timid. I had thought that I was not a sinner, I did not steal, murder, lie, cheat on my husband, etc. So why was the message always confess your sins when I had not sinned? How, or why should I feel convicted it I had not sinned? That is where the problem lay, I could not  see where I had sinned, so I remained in sin, and in terrible depression. So I asked God to strengthened my faith. With each doubt, He would send me a message almost immediately. I was at work, mind you. Sitting there wondering if God was really there. Within seconds a little boy, about 5 or 6 walks up and hands me a little plastic baggie. Inside was a business sized card that read Godisnowhere. At first I read it God is no where, then as God is now here. It stunned me. It had a piece of candy in the bag and I ate it. The reality of the moment set in. God had spoken to me instantly. Also the sugar started a fatigue problem, further underlining that what I was going through with my health was real, and that God was very much with me in everything in my life.

Re introduction of carbohydrates

• I can't get rid of the bullet on the left. Sort of like the yeast/mold (Y/M) in my body. Dr. F said to eat more carbs to maintain my weight. So I have, but this morning I have thicker spital than normal. This occurs when the Y/M is in asendance also yesterday I worked long hours. Stress from the long hours can cause it as well.

Kathy, my friend at work told me to look up Dee Simmon on the net. She is person that makes a product called Green Miracle, and alkalizing the body. I guess I will have to spend the extra money for Green Viberance  a green product. She, to my knowledge, does not make that product, but Dr. Dan has told me about it and suggests it. It is about 80 dollars a canister. One can lasts a month. Sigh. good health=money, but I feel so good now.
Dr. Sadek is scheduled for November sometime. I now realize that I need to adjust the VNS device. When I have all the diet pegs in a row, the device has less to fight against and overstimulates the brain, and this in itself causes anxiety and super multitasking and not enough deep sleep. I need deep sleep to recharge the ol' batteries in the body.

Turned off the implant

Yesterday I turned of the implant two times during the twenty four hour period. It was making me two active. Sparking my brain too much. I think that this is what led to my last down turn. This sparking led to my overall stress, which led to the depression. Not knowing why I was doing what I was doing, what caused the running and multitasking at the level it was, further made me anxious. I slept better last night. The oregano oil worked better for me. Made me more relaxed and the symptoms went away.
Video of the promotion helped me to see other people's reality of what they saw as opposed to what I was expericening inside my head.

Recipe for flax flat bread

Since I can't seem to tolerate gulten or sugars well, I have been trying other things to substitute for flour. Now I am trying this following for a tasty treat to eat with ground meat or soup or olive oil

1/2 cup of psyllium husks
1 cup of flax seed, ground

1 teaspoon of sea salt
1 teaspoon of baking soda
2 teaspoons of cream of tartar

1 1/2 cups of mixed greens, chopped in grinder
1/4 teaspoon red pepper
1/2 tblspoon fennel seed
1/2 teaspoon oregano

1 1/2 cups of water
grease cookie sheet with coconut oil
spread the mixture on the sheet at 1/4 inch thick cut into pieces
oven temp at 325 degrees

can try instead of greens
1/2 cup of egg whites.

Promotion at YFCC

On Sept the 4th I went to Lake Mary City Hall grounds and signed up for the Market that takes place every Saturday. In preparing for this show I became overwhelmed and perceived that I was getting in over my head in responsibility to too many things. Whether just perception or reality, I started to go down.
Over the past three weeks I have prayed, asked for Gods leading hand, called doctors, pled for relief, threatened of going back on meds, gone on vacation and rethought what was going on in my life.
I saw Dr. F yesterday when at the promotion. Something he said stuck in my brain. He said 'Remembering what it was like makes fear trigger it (more depression)' It has stuck in my brain. It seems that his insights hit every mark at just the right time. When my brain is struggling, struggling to literally 'breathe life' it convinetly forgets what nugutts of truth others have given it and holds on to the negative instead of hoping on the positive. Why? Is it set in a holding pattern? or What?
Dr Dan gave me a chance to help in his practice. To thank his patients for their patronage. I did silhouette cutting that you can see by clicking here.The poster advertising the event and showing my before and after photos is here
It seems that when I see myself in a video, I can see what others see of me. They can't know what mental pain I am going through. At the same time I can get out of myself and see that there is another world besides my painful mental thought. Weird. and Insightful.

These are Janet’s other sites:

nicktimeflyer.com

cafepress.com/bubbledreams

thesilhouetteshop.yolasite.com

Saturday Night Consult

Some heavy stuff went down yesterday. Heavy depression in the morning. I believed that it was, well the peanut butter that I ate the night before. When I thought that it began to clear up. I was able to work through the day. I was struggling with it all morning. Even to the point of quoting scripture to myself. That was pretty scarey, I mean that I was begging God to help. I mean begging, for the depression pushed me into a small place of darkness and I knew God was of light. I knew He would not abandoned me. I was at work,  a place of bright music, of happy children and bright dancing actors, and I felt squished into a corner of darkness. All because of peanut butter?
Aaron, my coworker arrives and during the day he describes what he does when he finds a small metal thing in his pocket. It is a magnifying glass used to proof work in printing shops. It was his dad's. His dad is dying right now. Aaron prays once in the morn for his dad, and each time he touches that piece of metal that sits with his change in his pants pocket for the rest of the day Aaron thanks God for the help for Aaron knows that God has helped his dad. That is faith. Aaron spoke to me of his faith. Four days before Stephanie West at Dr. Dan's speaks to me of faith. When this is confirmed by two people with in one week God is speaking to me. To me to have faith for this health process to work.
Then I put in a call to Dr. Dan. It was before Aaron talked to me. I held the phone for about two hours and put it away, for I don't like to carry it on me. When I pick it up after work to check messages, well both Dr. D and F had called back. I returned the calls and left D a message, and spoke about a half hour to F. It was a mind blowing call. ON A SATURDAY NIGHT.
Basically he listened and then asked me, what would Janet be like if she felt she was worth something. For I had ranted about not feeling like i was worth anything. I could not answer him. I ranted more. He wants to bring in a psychologist from Miami to phone consult sometime in the near future. THIS WAS ON A SATURDAY NIGHT CALL ON THE WAY HOME FROM WORK. No other Doctor or any medical team has helped me like this.