Well, as the header states I am back on Paxil. Intense anxiety and an increase in sluggishness in only four days. So I am forced back to the drug level that I was at. I have in the past tried to go off paxil as well as the other drugs and have ended up in the hospital. Right now I as so drowsy that I can hardly type this message. But I will continue to push through until I get back to where I was before I started to reduce the Paxil.
Since this has happened before, where I try to go off the drugs and fail, I have to develop a kind of patience. I start with frustration. Then anger, and in the past hopelessness engulfs me. Then the drugs bring me back and I try to remain level emotionally. I know this UltraMind program is a key because I do feel better now after seven weeks than I did before. But I can't go off the drugs. Not yet anyways.
I am living with depression. I was implanted with VNS therapy on March 11,2008 and am blogging what experiences I have, not only with the device but with depression itself, and just what depression is. This is to let people know depression is not just the "blues". True depression is a disease, not a mood problem. One can manage the depression with various treatments and I invite you to learn with me as I go through it.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Dr. Mark Hyman is the Man!
I started the UltraMind solution on July the 4th, 2009. The first thing I did was eliminate the gluten out of my diet. Energy started to surge into my everyday activities. I made some mistakes, most out of ignorance of just what foods had gluten in them. Then one by one I found that I had allergies to milk, eggs, soy. The energy and focus got greater. At the same time I concentrated on getting my digestive track realigned and success was at hand. I took probiotics to help clear up digestion. Liver support to detox the body. I am today starting to go off of my paxil. We will see. The VNS implant is starting to hurt even in sleep.
Labels:
detox,
digestive track,
eggs,
Gluten,
Liver support,
milk,
probiotics,
Soy,
VNS
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