I began Green Vibrance

Yesterday at sunset, after my evening meal of Mahi-Mahi, that I had at Hooters, I put a scoop of this green powder into a glass of water, and drank it on the way home. The water turned almost black, it was so green. I have heard from Dr. Dan that energy increases and that the product, being pure green energy from plants, alkalizes the body.
This is what my friend Kathy says about her product that she bought from Dee Simmons. This product was here and available immediately, so I bought it. Let's see if it stops the Y/M symptoms.
I had my latest lab test and am high in sodium, and low in Vitamin D. This product has vit D in a different form than what I had on my turntable of supplements that sits in my kitchen cabinet. So if it can be absorbed in a new way, well then maybe my vit D level will rise. It has been off for some time. Lack of Vit D causes depression as well. I live in Florida and am out in the sun for quite a bit everyday and thought that the sun would supply my Vit D needs, apparently it does not. When I supplement it with over the counter capsules my breasts hurt. Vit D is stored in fat tissue. I had always thought that  I did not need the Vitamin if the place that stored it hurt when I took it. But this fact is not held up to the light of truth if the test says that I lack the Vit. (vitamin D)

These are Janet’s other sites:

nicktimeflyer.com

cafepress.com/bubbledreams

thesilhouetteshop.yolasite.com

Thought Bubbles: The Spiritual Life Ensues

Something happened to me when the people at YFCC prayed for me. I began to see the statements of the Bible differently. The darkness inside my soul began to recede. I had always thought of the devil as an imp with a pointy tail. Red body, gleeful devilish eyes, but nothing that was going to bother me. Ah, but when I began see the devil as the depression and how the depression was robbing me of my light, of my joy, then, yes the devil was real and the only solution was the light of God. The sin was not see it this way. Once I saw it and asked God to forgive me, well I heard this booming voice "I forgive you". It was not my inner voice, but a much stronger, louder voice. One of strength. Not timid. I had thought that I was not a sinner, I did not steal, murder, lie, cheat on my husband, etc. So why was the message always confess your sins when I had not sinned? How, or why should I feel convicted it I had not sinned? That is where the problem lay, I could not  see where I had sinned, so I remained in sin, and in terrible depression. So I asked God to strengthened my faith. With each doubt, He would send me a message almost immediately. I was at work, mind you. Sitting there wondering if God was really there. Within seconds a little boy, about 5 or 6 walks up and hands me a little plastic baggie. Inside was a business sized card that read Godisnowhere. At first I read it God is no where, then as God is now here. It stunned me. It had a piece of candy in the bag and I ate it. The reality of the moment set in. God had spoken to me instantly. Also the sugar started a fatigue problem, further underlining that what I was going through with my health was real, and that God was very much with me in everything in my life.

Re introduction of carbohydrates

• I can't get rid of the bullet on the left. Sort of like the yeast/mold (Y/M) in my body. Dr. F said to eat more carbs to maintain my weight. So I have, but this morning I have thicker spital than normal. This occurs when the Y/M is in asendance also yesterday I worked long hours. Stress from the long hours can cause it as well.

Kathy, my friend at work told me to look up Dee Simmon on the net. She is person that makes a product called Green Miracle, and alkalizing the body. I guess I will have to spend the extra money for Green Viberance  a green product. She, to my knowledge, does not make that product, but Dr. Dan has told me about it and suggests it. It is about 80 dollars a canister. One can lasts a month. Sigh. good health=money, but I feel so good now.
Dr. Sadek is scheduled for November sometime. I now realize that I need to adjust the VNS device. When I have all the diet pegs in a row, the device has less to fight against and overstimulates the brain, and this in itself causes anxiety and super multitasking and not enough deep sleep. I need deep sleep to recharge the ol' batteries in the body.

Turned off the implant

Yesterday I turned of the implant two times during the twenty four hour period. It was making me two active. Sparking my brain too much. I think that this is what led to my last down turn. This sparking led to my overall stress, which led to the depression. Not knowing why I was doing what I was doing, what caused the running and multitasking at the level it was, further made me anxious. I slept better last night. The oregano oil worked better for me. Made me more relaxed and the symptoms went away.
Video of the promotion helped me to see other people's reality of what they saw as opposed to what I was expericening inside my head.

Recipe for flax flat bread

Since I can't seem to tolerate gulten or sugars well, I have been trying other things to substitute for flour. Now I am trying this following for a tasty treat to eat with ground meat or soup or olive oil

1/2 cup of psyllium husks
1 cup of flax seed, ground

1 teaspoon of sea salt
1 teaspoon of baking soda
2 teaspoons of cream of tartar

1 1/2 cups of mixed greens, chopped in grinder
1/4 teaspoon red pepper
1/2 tblspoon fennel seed
1/2 teaspoon oregano

1 1/2 cups of water
grease cookie sheet with coconut oil
spread the mixture on the sheet at 1/4 inch thick cut into pieces
oven temp at 325 degrees

can try instead of greens
1/2 cup of egg whites.

Promotion at YFCC

On Sept the 4th I went to Lake Mary City Hall grounds and signed up for the Market that takes place every Saturday. In preparing for this show I became overwhelmed and perceived that I was getting in over my head in responsibility to too many things. Whether just perception or reality, I started to go down.
Over the past three weeks I have prayed, asked for Gods leading hand, called doctors, pled for relief, threatened of going back on meds, gone on vacation and rethought what was going on in my life.
I saw Dr. F yesterday when at the promotion. Something he said stuck in my brain. He said 'Remembering what it was like makes fear trigger it (more depression)' It has stuck in my brain. It seems that his insights hit every mark at just the right time. When my brain is struggling, struggling to literally 'breathe life' it convinetly forgets what nugutts of truth others have given it and holds on to the negative instead of hoping on the positive. Why? Is it set in a holding pattern? or What?
Dr Dan gave me a chance to help in his practice. To thank his patients for their patronage. I did silhouette cutting that you can see by clicking here.The poster advertising the event and showing my before and after photos is here
It seems that when I see myself in a video, I can see what others see of me. They can't know what mental pain I am going through. At the same time I can get out of myself and see that there is another world besides my painful mental thought. Weird. and Insightful.

These are Janet’s other sites:

nicktimeflyer.com

cafepress.com/bubbledreams

thesilhouetteshop.yolasite.com

Saturday Night Consult

Some heavy stuff went down yesterday. Heavy depression in the morning. I believed that it was, well the peanut butter that I ate the night before. When I thought that it began to clear up. I was able to work through the day. I was struggling with it all morning. Even to the point of quoting scripture to myself. That was pretty scarey, I mean that I was begging God to help. I mean begging, for the depression pushed me into a small place of darkness and I knew God was of light. I knew He would not abandoned me. I was at work,  a place of bright music, of happy children and bright dancing actors, and I felt squished into a corner of darkness. All because of peanut butter?
Aaron, my coworker arrives and during the day he describes what he does when he finds a small metal thing in his pocket. It is a magnifying glass used to proof work in printing shops. It was his dad's. His dad is dying right now. Aaron prays once in the morn for his dad, and each time he touches that piece of metal that sits with his change in his pants pocket for the rest of the day Aaron thanks God for the help for Aaron knows that God has helped his dad. That is faith. Aaron spoke to me of his faith. Four days before Stephanie West at Dr. Dan's speaks to me of faith. When this is confirmed by two people with in one week God is speaking to me. To me to have faith for this health process to work.
Then I put in a call to Dr. Dan. It was before Aaron talked to me. I held the phone for about two hours and put it away, for I don't like to carry it on me. When I pick it up after work to check messages, well both Dr. D and F had called back. I returned the calls and left D a message, and spoke about a half hour to F. It was a mind blowing call. ON A SATURDAY NIGHT.
Basically he listened and then asked me, what would Janet be like if she felt she was worth something. For I had ranted about not feeling like i was worth anything. I could not answer him. I ranted more. He wants to bring in a psychologist from Miami to phone consult sometime in the near future. THIS WAS ON A SATURDAY NIGHT CALL ON THE WAY HOME FROM WORK. No other Doctor or any medical team has helped me like this.

Thought Bubbles: Spiritual Aspect

Some friends prayed over me and gave me some things to think about. The depression is darkness, Jesus is the light. The Spirit is in us. The Spirit is God. Concentrate on what is light, and all else that is the depression is lies. Yes, just lies, not God. Do not listen to lies. For God loves you and will not forsake you, never, no matter how bad it gets He will never leave you, never. Just hold on.

Teas of any kind are bad

Yes teas of any kind trigger the crawling anxiety. The I want to jump out of my skin varity of that malaise. I drank about 50 ounces over two days and several different kinds, all caffine free. Late second day and i was out of it.

I saw Dr. F today.

I need to see how much lead is left in my body. Over the last year I have read many times that heavy metals in the body will inhibit the friendly bacteria in your gut.This was read in Prescription for Nutritional Healing page 298(forth edition) That the friendly bacteria will not grow.This allows yeast and other parasites to grow. I have lead in my body. Why can I not be tested to see just where the level is. I need to know. I thought that is what Dr. F would do today. To continue to detox. At least to check the level. But right now he is evaluating just what is to be done. I can see that that needs to be done.
I have also read at least three times that the test for yeast, for the blood test, can not always be trusted. Period. One time was in a booklet entitled The Candida Yeast Syndrome and is by Ray E. Wunderlich ,Jr.,MD. It is A Keats Good Health Guide. Now that I need it prove a point, I can't find the booklet to put in front of the doctor to have proof of this untrustability of the blood test. Another source, I believe, was the UltraMind website written by Mark Hyman. MD. Now I can not find the page. This is frustration beyond belief. And another place was on the internet at a website that was run by a woman chiropractor. Now I can not remember her name. But I read this. I am not going to say that I am always right, but come on, why not just retest me and see where the level is?
I know that I am not a doctor, but I would like to know why I can not retest to see just where the level is at. I have suffered enough. All of it is not in my head.

What I need to look into

What I need to look into
Aloe Vera juice, and what sugar levels it may have so that it won't affect me. Aloe Vera is supposed to increase white cell to kill the yeast.
Kolorex herbal formula which is made in Canada and has an antifungal agent called polygodial. Forest Herbs Research makes it.
Aniseed is related to Fennel Seed and is antifungal in its properties
Maitake, pau d'arco teas. to see if these teas will be helpful. I have to drink a lot of water to wash the toxins out anyway.
Distilled water only. I have been told that just distilled water may not be up to par.
No chlorine in the water, but distilling it takes any good minerals out.

Current symptoms to tell Dr. Fernandez.

Right now I have these problems:
Ears that pop as if they are be coming full of something or are getting infected. My
eyes are burning constantly, and the vision is from time to time blurry.
My crotch is burning and discharging and I have tried yogurt and garlic suppositories and the burning is somewhat decreased and the discharge continues. I am douching with oregano oil. One teaspoon to a quart of water.
There is white cottage cheese-like substance on the inside of my mouth in the morning on my tongue , more cheese-like when stressed, more spit like, but white and thick when not stressed.
I have food allergies, environmental and sound and smell sensitivities,
I need live blood microscopy to determine what else I might have. I have read that heavy metals cause the yeast to become stronger, to become entrenched so that it can not leave the system. I need to detox.
When all or any of these symptoms occur the depression occurs again, and again. But I will learn to control it somehow.
Added 11/24/2010:
When the depression comes another symptom is that the body needs to be kept warmer.

Too much stress

Mom had her heart pacemaker battery replaced sometime in mid August and that took up the last two EMO's. This was very stressful for me, and her. She survived and thrived! We did not give her any antibiotics and she did not have an infection either. We tried to give her the pain medication, but she was allergic to it and her throat swelled up and scared me and her as well. So we took her off of that as well. When the doctors checked her after the surgery she was healed up fantastic. They both said that she was doing great and to continue to do what we were doing. So I started to cook for her. This added more stress for me. At the same time it was starting the silhouette business. This stressed me out more. Well, all this stress brought on the depression again. So when I started to go down low, I requested a weeks vacation.
As I destressed and started to heal, I got several projects done. I made my biking shorts out of cotton spandex, I planted my garden, I visited the Orlando Museum of Art, I tried to bake some type of bread-like food out of flax seed and psyllium husk and that is still in the oven. I bought a book by Dr. Asa Andrew and it is called Empowering your Health and I am reading it on my husband's IPAD. It is right up the same way that Dr Dan is taking us, but it also is a great support mechanism to read and re-read.
I made a video statement to Dr. Dan. He is celebrating his tenth year. That was yesterday. I am suffering a yeast infection. I think that this yeast infection is all through out my body. So I am going to talk to DR. F about more detox and anti-candida supplements. I have been taking oil of oregano and it has helped.
The VEGA chocolate tastes more chocolate than the "green vegtable" taste of green vibrance. You mix it with water, or almond milk and if you have a blender you can add low glycemic fruits or stevia. If you put psyllium husks in it it becomes thick and filling like oatmeal.

Chocolate

I can not handle chocolate. Apparently it triggers the yeast. I have heard it said by people having this problem before, but never put it to myself, I mean related my problems to chocolate. Well. Let's be clear about this. Felt good yesterday and into the evening, had chocolate Vega before I went to bed. Sleep was light, but that is because of the VNS being turned up to high. I had another chocolate Vega this morning, and brother, I tell ya, I am suffering again. An to think of how I used to eat the stuff. I looked back into the blog and I used to think that the chocolate would help me get through the depression. I know now that it sets one up for a fall if one has yeast.
Linda Allen states that to avoid it altogether.
Check out the post for 1/20/2011. I had been eating chocolate for three days before a huge fall of emotions and depression.

Off to get blood test

When I fast to get a blood test I don't sleep well. I usually eat right before I go to bed and this helps me sleep. I know that my doctors say not to eat at that time, but if I do not I can't sleep. I get very hungry. Very much so now because of the VNS device. It burns the calories. A VNS device helps to burn the calories.
I am forcing myself to take it easy. To slow down, to not multi-task. To concentrate on one thing at a time. This will help my mind, to train it to focus. And when I come back after this depression I will have learned to slow down and to help prevent what happened this last week. Yes, a depression for seven days.

Getting my medical records transferred

I called Dr. Rivera and started the transfer of records on 9/3/10. Then when Dr. Sadek gets both the records from Dr. Karabatos and Dr. Rivera and Dr. Dan, he will be able to see me to advise me about the VNS implant. We will see how long it takes to transfer the records.

Another bout of depression

Started on the first of September. I had been under so much stress of late and wham it hit me very hard. It is not just a mood thing. It is as if my brain is crippled. Literally. More than not functioning. Note above post. I have canceled nearly everything for the next few weeks. I know that I have lead in my body, and think that it has not chelated out as of yet. September the thirteenth I will have another appointment with Dr. Fernandez. At that time he will want me to run a test to determine how much lead is still in the body. Then detox again. It will take me out of action again. For it is very hard on me. But I get through it. Here is an interesting article on lead.

DMSA Chelation
DMSA For Detoxing Lead and Mercury

Our bodies are constantly exposed to an onslaught of environmental toxins. Lead and mercury are two heavy metals that seem to have found their way into almost everyone. Lead and mercury do not occur naturally in the body and as such are very toxic. These two heavy metals are known to interfere with how nerves communicate. Meso-2,3-dimercaptosuccinic acid (DMSA) is a compound approved in the 1960’s by the FDA for the removal (chelation) of heavy metals. DMSA is considered the preferred agent for the chelation (removal) of heavy metals in both adults and children. Mercury is considered to be the second most toxin substance on the planet (uranium is #1) and the negative effects of mercury exposure are well documented.

Meso-2,3-dimercaptosuccinic acid (DMSA) is also known as succimer and sold as a prescription under the trade name Chemet. DMSA is also sold as an over the counter nutritional supplement in some areas but it is often very difficult to find and can be very expensive (over $1 per capsule). DMSA has a somewhat strong sulfur like smell. It’s chemical properties make it particularly suited to chelate (remove via excretion) mercury and lead, the two most common toxic heavy metals in people.

One of the main advantages of DMSA is its large therapeutic window. This means there is a wide margin between the amount necessary to produce the intended result and the level that could potentially overload the patient. This makes DMSA exceptionally safe.
How Did I Get Heavy Metals (Mercury and Lead) In My Body?

There are several possible ways heavy metals got into your body. Below each of the more common exposures will be discussed. Remember there are no safe levels for heavy metals. Chelation of toxic heavy metals with DMSA is well documented in the scientific literature. There are several other chelation agents but DMSA so far as been proven to be the safest and most effective.
When I tried the DMSA before it was so powerful that I was almost suicidal. So I stopped it. But protocols for taking it are different on the internet than I had, for I took it for the test and that is a heavy dose. I will prepare myself mentally for this next challenge.

Symptoms that occur

Some symptoms that occur when the depression comes:(could be mold at the source of these-editor)
I stumble, the left foot gets in the way. I drop things more and am clumsy.
Eyes are itchy
Private parts burn.
Can't solve math problems, or simple logic problem.
Everything looks to big to slove ( any problem )
More anger insues.
I feel like my IQ goes down by nearly one third.
Ears pop and feel infected.
Tongue is coated with stuff that looks like cottage cheese
Can't type well. This locks in with clumsiness. Can't spell well. Asks husband to spell for me. Constantly. This irritates me.

Not heard from Dr. Sadek

Well, it has been a week and I have not heard from the neurologist Dr. Sadek. I am not overly worried about it, but I would like the matter to be settled. I have noticed some psychologically different ways of looking at problems. You could call it a watching game. I watch how my mind deals with problems. I am trying to learn how to address different stressors in my life. I have always dealt with them with the depression. I pushed myself through them, getting more and more stressed, and then crashing in more depression. Then it would take a few days to recover and the cycle would start over again. I am now taking a mental health day. Changing, for that day the frantic way I rush through life. Just for that day. If I need to do something, for just that day I will put it off. For this day I will choose what I do, because I want to do it, not because it has to be done. Period. Hell can freeze over, but I will choose what I do, when I do it. If I want to go somewhere out of the ordinary and have lunch, well, so be it. And I will do this until my sense of balance comes back. I want to be in control of the stress, not it in control of me!
So if I take a day off from cooking, caring for my mom, cleaning, running my small business, going to my job, so be it. And if I want to do this more often than in the past, so be it. I must learn a balance. So what if other people seem to be flying past me in "success". My success is my mental and physical health, the money thing, well it has to come later.
I have noticed in my life that I push myself to make more money, or try to, work hard at the idea and get stressed, the yeast gets to over grow and causes mental illness, I then suffer the defeatism and lack to self esteem that comes with the depression and I withdrawal from the project. I have gained much from the actual learning of the project, how to do it, what to do in solving that kind of problem in that situation, but I seem to gain no monetary value from it. I learn from the whole process though, and in the learning is the success. Then I tell others of the experience. Learning and teaching and helping others, not money, is success. At least it seems that way for me. So why the stress?
There is a system of letting go of stress. It the Sedona Method. Hale Dowskin is the guy leading the movement. Another is prayer. Just let God be your buddy. Tell Him, look, I can't deal with this anymore. Do your best, and let God do the rest. The principal thought of letting go must be practiced from moment to moment. So that all through the day you are decreasing the stress not accumulating it. It is a type of meditation to do this. A type of prayer. After all if God is your buddy what can stand against you?