Back on paxil

Well, as the header states I am back on Paxil. Intense anxiety and an increase in sluggishness in only four days. So I am forced back to the drug level that I was at. I have in the past tried to go off paxil as well as the other drugs and have ended up in the hospital. Right now I as so drowsy that I can hardly type this message. But I will continue to push through until I get back to where I was before I started to reduce the Paxil.
Since this has happened before, where I try to go off the drugs and fail, I have to develop a kind of patience. I start with frustration. Then anger, and in the past hopelessness engulfs me. Then the drugs bring me back and I try to remain level emotionally. I know this UltraMind program is a key because I do feel better now after seven weeks than I did before. But I can't go off the drugs. Not yet anyways.

The Ultra Mind is working

I deleted gluten on Independence day the fourth. Now into the fifth day I can tell my memory is returning.I woke up this morning remembering many details of my dreams of last night, and stuff that happened yesterday,last night before dinner and as I was with mom after dinner. I was amazed, and am amazed at the effects of just stopping the gluten.
for years I did not know what gluten was, how it could be poisoning me. My god! It is amazing!
Vitamins and supplements started in the afternoon yesterday. I have often taken these things, as anyone has, but I have done it this time with some new stipulations. It must be either liquid, or powder and the most bio available form. That is one thing one must learn. A lot of this stuff is not absorbable and full of fillers that are in themselves poison to your body.
List of supplements now
Peter Gillham's Natural Calm Magnesium a powder
Sundown's Mercury Free fish oil
Pure Essence Labs Life Essence a multivitamin powder
Calrson Vitamin D3 2000 IU soft gels
Nature's Way Turmeric-pill
Jarrow Methyl B-12-pill
Evening Primrose oil
I am still taking prescription meds
Cymbalta, Provigil,Paroxitine, Simastatin,Levothyroxine
The VNS implant is at 2 mhz every two hours.
I am also changing diet to whole foods and more organic. Changing sweetners to stevia, or stevia based products.

Try Six Weeks to an Ultra Mind be Mark Hyman, MD.

I received an email about two weeks ago from Bill Harris of CenterPointe. He has a newsletter that reviews subjects that are life changing in terms of mind body and health issues. His system is Holosync, but that is for another post. The newsletter was about Mark Hyman's Six Weeks to an Ultramind.
Just WOW! He had put together something truly amazing. The concept is that the whole body is interconnected.Now of course every one with a little brains knows this, but not the everyday common doctor (psychiatrist,internist etc). So what bothers the body also bothers the brain. Health your body, and your brain will follow.
I started last month with supplementing with a great magnesium. That is working.So when I received the Ultramind information, well, I was at a point that I knew that my problems were in my body.
I have for years researched supplements,vitamins and any other treatments that would give me relief from this depression. Well, this is another step. And everything he says makes so much sense. But he knows why to supplement with what and how much to supplement at what time of day and what to expect. He does not have a line of supplements to sell,just good common sense in a formalized format. A guide. So I have started by dropping gluten. This is my third day off of anything made with flour of any kind. All ready I am showing signs of my mind clearing. Now on to ordering mega bioavailable vitamins. It will be great. Anything to fight this thing.