Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Lower dose without increase to VNS

Because of the storms Dr. Rivera could not increase the VNS therapy today because he could not find the device to do so. It is the size of a remote control for a TV.What with the flooding and the moving of his office furniture he has misplaced it. Had I known this I would not have gone up there to his office. It is not that I needed it this time, but I shortly will. He wants me to go down 15mg in the paroxitine (Paxil). I am having migraines that I forgot to tell him about. The migraines are not constant, and not fullblown. But I am having tense upper back soreness. I am using the massage pillow that John gave me.We will see, and I will start the lower dose tomorrow.



Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Storms

The recent summer storms have caused a big problem for me. Dr Rivera is in Orange City, which is about 40 miles north of here and that area was severely flooded. His office was inundated and everything was ruined. I don't know if the device that controls my happiness is damaged of not. Right now I am doing more than fine.
I am more creative in every way. I can leave old ways of thinking behind by thinking around the problem.
I have also been able to accept that I need my time. My time to create, relax, read, contact old friends. I seem to love myself more. And in that can give more to others when they need it. Things seem more OK.